slowly climbing out of my self-induced proverbial gutter
23/03/2009all my hard, sober work in these last eight months (yes, it’s been that long) is starting to pay off. it’s sad for me to think that for the last 20 years, give or take some extended pockets of sobriety, i was going out every night drinking and such (’and such’= drugs). it’s where i got my love from. i got it from other sad sack barflies who lit up after the third drink. we shared a common problem…life. when we drank together everything and everyone on the outside could screw off as far as we were concerned. we were trying to live life on our terms. and when we were drinking it was our terms. we drank when we wanted to, drowning our sorrows or heightening our joys. we were in control, or so we thought. when i was hung over, nothing worked better than a little hair of the dog. if i got plastered on wine the night before, a nice spicy bloody mary (or five) in the morning was just what the doctor ordered. i’ve been known to shower gripping a a rolling rock. in an attempt to detox occassionally, i would take hot epsom salt baths with a beer in one hand and my glass pot pipe in the other. the toxins were going in as they were being sweated out. there was a stretch of time where i needed to drink a bottle of wine to ’steady my nerves’…before noon! i don’t know how many sunrises i have witnessed, and dreaded. the birds chirping were not feathered angels heralding in a fresh new day, but tiny demonic peckers mocking me with their shrill tweets and twirps. shut the fuck up!!! things are different lately. now, i take extreme pleasure in the simple things in life. i love the fact that I DON’T HAVE TO DRINK. cause let me tell you, i had to before. and then there’s this blog. you don’t know how therapeutic it has been. i get my love here now. and my creativity is creeping back. i’m actually motivated to do more than just sit on my couch watching marathons of ‘cheaters.’ i really do love that show. probably cause i’ve been on both sides of that nasty fence. anyhow, my point is, that those little webisodes i did that were inspired by my alcohol monitoring ankle bracelet (which people think is house arrest) have been well received. firstly, they (the folks at atom.com) want me to make five more. weee! and secondly, they’ve been getting great reviews. if you want, you can read article #1 and article #2. there are many other articles out there, all of them positive. and what i love is that the people writing the reviews kinda don’t know what’s real and what’s staged. and if you know me at all, that’s what i’m all about! andy kaufman style. and if you want to see HOUSE ARREST WITH ANDY DICK, go to atom.com. there are five webisodes. love you guys!
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